Regarding Money, Wealth, and Power

At times,
The best that I can do is to write.

Regarding Money, Wealth, and Power:

I don’t know why I am resistant to making money. I guess it feels a bit to me like slavery. I’d rather be a servant than a slave, and I’d serve someone of worth rather than someone worthless. I’d rather not be a slave to money, wealth, and power. However, there are certain things that I would like to do that require money, wealth, and power.

I’d be more comfortable if I could take the power, and influence, and let someone else have the money. However, I really can’t do that. I think I would like someone to help me manage my money.
Wealth is important to me. I need the right tools to be in the right place at the right time.
Money is also important. I am in debt, and I NEED to get out of debt. I am being supported by my family, and I need to support them. Money also helps me to acquire the wealth I need to have the tools to be the person that I would like to be. Furthermore, money is a simple and powerful tool in itself.
Power is also important to me, because it might be necessary to protect the things that make my life meaningful. That is: The land, oceans, air, plants, and wildlife; my people, our cultures, ideas, arts, and music; my family, friends, and loved ones.

I have a conflict though. Some of my core values are: freedom, flexibility, creativity, expression, learning, and development; and right now I am sacrificing money to attain them. I really need a positive option that gives me money, but does not impinge on my core values.

I think I need to look into tutoring, and music education. But, I really need stability, health insurance, and dental care. I need to look into those things.

I have additional unexplored options: Disability and unemployment options, military service, Teach for America, or other nonprofit employment.